I talk a lot about rule breaking, because it is what we must do inside our own consciousness if we want to create lives reflective of our own values. On Friday, June 25th, mental/emotional rules were broken with the help of a woman who asked me the questions I needed to hear at exactly the time I needed to hear them. They were questions I had been circling, and she brought them forth.
And then she made me answer them.
Friday, June 25th, my life changed. Amazing shifts in understanding gave me freedom, and grounding at the same time. And at the end of the day I watched a movie that is sweet and deep and - perhaps unsurprisingly - in alignment with my day. At the end of the movie, two words were spoken...and they struck my heart chakra, and I burst into tears of gratitude.
I hadn't seen the movie before, and to be honest I wasn't expecting a lot from it, even with all of the name actors: Oprah, Chris Pine, Mindy Kaling, Reese Witherspoon. A Wrinkle In Time, a Disney film. It's one of those things that I do - go deeply into films and feel what about them speaks to my spiritual journey.
But I'm putting the cart before the horse.
I believe in breaking even spiritual "rules" in order to embrace my complete authenticity. So many spiritual "isms" have dogged me, and for decades I have pursued meaning and done combat with truths that are not my own but are easy outs, in my view. Things like, "Well, that just wasn't meant to happen", or "that was meant to happen". Says who? I am the questioner, so, "Says WHO?" I will ask, and I will ponder if there is something in the mystery of life that I am truly a part of, or maybe even a major player in. I want complete answers for me.
I have determined that I will not settle for only bringing part of me on my best journeys. I won't use affirmations that I don't completely feel the truth of, because that is a Band-Aid on a wound and the seepage around the sides will not allow for the healing I seek on all levels - mental, emotional, spiritual, consciousness, sensation and knowing.
So when I spoke to a Spiritual Law of Attraction Coach today, the place in my consciousness that has never been approached correctly, and therefore has never been able to open, found itself in a new space of synthesis and self and transformation.
My perspectives on my ability to change my every day's experience - transformed. I still will need practice, but transformed I am.
I see myself differently - my mistakes, my efforts - I see them with admiration and acceptance and so much sweetness; sweetness of a nature that is indescribable in comparison with the self-judgment I've leveled against myself so ruthlessly and so often in the past.
I wanted to share my evening with someone, but my companions were all busy Friday night so I went looking for a movie. I found one and put it on. It was fanciful and aligned with metaphysical ideas that are absolutely my jam. It was acted well, and produced gorgeously, and its rhythm was unusual and not the Hollywood norm, which as an actor and movie lover I appreciate so much.
It was about the beauty of imperfection. It was colorful and heart-tugging. But it didn't bring tears to my eyes. Not even when our heroine found her long-lost father - a theme sure to move someone like me who lost her mother at too young an age and always could be depended upon before to cry at movie or TV themes about long-lost family members magically returning. (Think soap operas...)
Not this time.
Not even when the end wasn't perfection, but perfect imperfection, just as life itself really is.
Not even when the husband and wife reunited, to her complete shock, and it was clear that he would have some 'splainin' to do!
Not even when young love was superseded by self-love and self-acceptance and pride by our heroine who had started the movie self-hating - I spent years there - and distrusting, and unhappy - spent years there too.
Not even then.
Instead it was when - all romantic and emotional visual "aids" removed from the camera's view - our young heroine simply turned to the door of the house and the sky and light visible through the window, and said just two words that hit my heart with a palpable sensation of unexpected and undeniable energy, .
"Thank you," she quietly said.
Exactly what I needed to say at the end of this remarkable day of mine.
And I burst out sobbing.
Exactly what I needed to feel.
Women's Leadership Coach and Speaker Lori is the author of Call Center Crazy and The Human Solution: Human Solutions to Every "Unsolvable" Business Problem,
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The Feminine Face of Business
Cincinnati, OH 45205
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