Starting a New Routine - or - What Was I Thinking?

I was moved by my new friend, Pete, to undertake doing a daily blog.

This does seem to require some humility, as I have no idea what I will be writing about other than what is happening right in my NOW. And now is all about keeping to this new routine even though I'm thinking that control is a bit like the impossible mission.

But it seems that that is the point right now for me in my development as a spiritual being with a body.

In about 3 weeks I start a job. It's a good job, but it's not entrepreneurial which means it scares and saddens me. Just being honest. I know the holy grail these days - or any days of any regular kind of person, which I have many times wished I were - is security.

These are weird times, to put it mildly, and the idea of having a job with a good company where the possibilities abound is usually seen as a real success. And so it is, even for crazy me!

So - I ask myself as I emotionally flip about like a landed fish - what is the actual challenge here? It's not to "get rid of" emotion but to let myself learn and be moved by my experiences and take them on in new ways.

That leaves these questions: Is the challenge to change my perspective and accept all with gratitude and see where it all takes me? Is the challenge instead to change my perspective around what I am capable of, which as a human being is anything and everything - and see if I can't make things explode in my business in the next 3 weeks so that I don't need to do the job-job?

I choose Door #2 first, and Door #1 second. 

What I've been doing for about 2 months now is a daily Creative Visualization in which I stand in my joy. This is something that is taught very well by Mike Dooley of Tut.com, and I recommend listening to any of his daily Facebook Lives. The point of what he teaches is to stand in your desired outcome for just 10 or fewer minutes each day - Monday through Friday is what he does - and to let that energy guide you.

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It worked for him big-time and gave him a life that he absolutely loves living. So, can I align my own expectations + humility with this energy-shifting. I mean, I want to be a successful speaker, actress, thought leader - that's what I've been working toward for a long time. And it may require - will no doubt require - that I go in all kinds of weird directions because success is not a straight line. So, if I go to the job, I shouldn't despair.

Easier said than done. But that's one of the challenges I'm going to meet with this effort to stand in What-I-Want, and to walk in What-Is. That combines both the vision and the humility. 

I hope I can make that easier done than said. But at least - "at least" - I know that it is in my hands to a great degree, if not wholly. That last bit makes me wonder...but I'm ready to experiment with my own experience and see what happens!

And I will definitely keep you posted...